Holy moly

Ok, seriously I feel like I have blessing upon blessing rain down on me in the last month. Last month I met with the bishop and talked about going on a mission. I was so absolutely positive that it was what I was going to do, but about weeks ago I got a call that I have been waiting for since February from Navajo County Sheriff's Office saying that the dispatch job I applied and tested for months ago, and I got the job!! I was a little overwhelmed, ok that's a lie, I was way overwhelmed at first by everything... I had a few break downs, I've cried more in the last two weeks than I have in a year combined it feels like. I accepted the job out in Holbrook and will be done with my job here in Cottonwood on the 17th and hope to be moved out there no later than the 19th! I am so very excited for this new chapter in my life and to see where it will take me. This has been something that I have wanted to do for a long time but there was always something holding me back. The only thing that would hold me back at this point would be myself. I am determined to go out there and prove to myself and people who think I can't do it, that I can and I will. It will be a challenge I suspect but something that I have to do for myself mostly. I need to focus on me and doing what's best for me and not everyone else. I also feel like this is something that I have to do for Tara and Will. They are expecting their 5th baby in December, they have a lot going on with Sawyer and I feel that it is much needed for them to not have to worry about one more person. They need to focus on their family and getting things back to normal. I am so very grateful for my family and friends who have been there for me this last year, it has almost been a year to date since I thought my life was over. My life never ended, that chapter closed and I have opened many new ones since. This will be the best yet. I will miss the kiddos, I love being able to see them every day but I have to go do this. I feel like at this point in my life it is necessary. I will keep every one posted on what's going on in Holbrook and maybe once I get all moved in and everything I will take some pictures of the new place and post them... Until then!!