Struggling

So, I thought I would post tonight... I'm struggling really bad tonight! In my previous post I mentioned that I had my good days and bad days, too... Unfortunately, tonight is one of those bad ones. I know that time heals all wounds, but I am going to be completely honest I don't know if this wound will ever heal... I know that my relationship with Wes didn't work for a reason but there is still a part of me that yearns for that companionship in him again, to be able to have my best friend back... There are a lot of people out there that will say he wasn't a good guy, but I saw past those "flaws" and loved him despite of them... He was a good man and yes there were some things that happened that weren't good but that didn't make him a bad guy... Tonight is one of those nights that I want things to be the way they were a year ago, I want to be able to come home to him and look forward to something... This too shall pass, I know it's just a hard road.