Grave yard shifts

So I have been working grave yard shifts at work which gives me a lot of time to myself since I work from midnight til 6 in the morning all by my lonesome... I was going back through blogs and reading them, giggling at some and tearing up at others (I know I am a total baby)... I'm not gonna lie, I miss living closer to my family and friends... I love having Shawn and Shane here but sometimes they irritate me and since I live in a house full of boys I need some time away from all the testosterone, it gets lonely for a girl in a house full of boys... Anyways, I just wanted to take some time and tell all my family how much they mean to me... Dad- Thank you for teaching me to go for my goals in life and to never back down... I have taken after you in many senses, I have looked up to you for a long time and as a young child I always knew that I wanted to work in law enforcement, you encouraged me to do it and I love what I do! I have gone through jobs like I change my underwear and I should have listened to you a long time ago and just jumped in head first... Love you for that!! Mom- Ever since I can remember I have idolized you... You're my best friend and confidant, you taught me growing up how to be compassionate and caring... You taught me to take pride in a clean home and that someday I want to grow up and be just like you... I watched you raise 7 kids, and we were not by any means easy children to deal with, haha... You did it with love and made it look easy... I am amazed at how you survived all those years raising us without pulling your hair out... I don't have any kids of my own yet but someday when I do I hope that I am 1/2 the mother to my children as you were to us... I love you so much and thank you for everything you taught me! Tara- I can call you up at any time of the day (or night) and talk to you about anything... I have always seen so much of you in myself and I love it... I can remember growing up, you were like a mini mom helping us little ones out... I watch you now with your kiddos and I am amazed by the love and warmth you give them, they all light up around you. You have taught me a lot about myself, you always know what to say to me even if at that time I don't want to hear it. Thank you for all you have done for me and continue to do (and Willy T, too), I don't know where I would be with out you... Love you sister! Heather- Where oh where do I begin? I remember growing up, you and butted heads like none other... But then we grew up and moved away from each other and you also became one of my best friends, you make me laugh with your antics and smart remarks... I always know that if I am down in the dumps that I can count on you to make me laugh and see the good in the world. You have always been there to help me bounce back after I fall, you were there many days when I lived in the valley and needed an escape and I love that about you, seester. You have always been reliable and trustworthy! Erin- I know that you and I still have our moments and I think that maybe it has to do with the fact that you're still mad at me for bonking you on your noggin when Mom brought you home from the hospital... Haha, no I'm kidding... You out of all of us kids have been through your fair share of hard times and yet you almost always have a smile on your face and a little bounce in your step. I appreciate that, because when I am down in the dumps I don't have that quality in me. You have brought a lot of sunshine into my life, thank you and love you Ernie. Shane- You drive me bonkers sometimes because it seems like sometimes you wait til the last minute to plan things out... But, in the same token you are a live in the moment kind of guy and I want to be more like that some day... I get tired of all the hustle and bustle and sometimes I need to slow down and take things in and appreciate the small things in life. You have taught me how to slow down some and to enjoy those things that I was missing. You never forget to tell me how much you appreciate me for things and I love it (maybe I shouldn't admit this) when I am sitting on the couch at the house and you bend down and kiss me on the head. Sometimes I need that. Thanks brother, love you!! Shawn- You remind me of me sometimes... With your hot headed-ness!! You and I are so quick to jump down each others throats but I have seen you on more than one occasion after a fight tell me that you are sorry... It makes me soooo mad sometimes, because you are the bigger person and say it first, but then I remember that you just said sorry and I can't be mad at you anymore because it makes me smile. I love that you are the first to jump up and help me when I ask for it, especially when I am at my limit... You have taught me how to appreciate the little things in life, whether it's taking out the trash or wiping something up you notice those things... Love you!! I just thought that I needed to get it out there and let my family know how much I love and appreciate them, I could go on forever about how much I love you all but I am getting off in about 45 minutes and I still haven't finished cleaning up at work... Plus, I leave for Cottonwood right after this so I kinda wanna go home and get my stuff together!! I love you all so so so much and I know that I don't say it near as often as I should, I will try and work on that! I miss you all a ton, but I have to say when I do get to see everyone and we get together it makes it that much more awesome to spend time with all my best friends... I consider each and every one of my siblings my best friend, I remember growing up and Mom would say to us if we were fighting or beating up on each other that someday we will look back and regret hurting each other because that person would be our best friend someday... Look at us now, we are! Who would have thought when we were younger that Mom knew what she was talking about? Love you Mom, Dad, Tara, Heather, Erin, Shane and Shawn...